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Deanna... Where are you? Do you see me when you sleep? Sometimes I see you.
I don't look quite so pretty anymore. No make-up here, no soft sheets and...
Oh... Soft sheets...
I do miss those.
I wonder if you've been caught. Maybe they've set up some other place like this one. Don't think you have, but one never knows, right? If not, then... Stay away. Just, for the unlife of me, stay away... I don't want me to be the result of your incarceration, too.
Made some new friends, though. You know me - ever the mingler, or at least now I am. Wasn't too much of one before the bite! You gave me strength on the inside as well as out. More confidence and all of that. A guy who knows all about guns and such. He's called Joseph. Hannah; cute as a puppy with a sock and someone I met not too long ago, albeit briefly. We're forced into a sort of 'truce' thing with the human contingent, as it were, but I don't mind. We sort of help eachother, as much as one can.
Quinn, how're you, my little red squirrel? For some reason, I think you might actually have made a better go of it in here, than most have done. I miss you... I do. And it seems so silly, what with our new understanding and all, for fate to have taken me away, like this.
You know, we're in danger of becoming something of a Greek tragedy, if we're not too careful. Wouldn't that be a drag, huh?
Or memorable...
Either way, I think of you often. Not quite in that 'thighs-clenching-sheets-and-pillows' way, but perhaps that's a good thing? Forced labour sure does take the lust factor away, I can tell you that much. Everyone seems too tired to act on those kinds of impulses. At least I can appreciate you more generally, just that little bit more.
Starting to doubt that we'll ever get out, but... If we do? I promise to come see you. Wish I really could, in more than just my dreams.
Jill, Jill, Jill... I can just imagine you stomping your foot about all of this!
In a very real way, I do happen to know precisely how you've been feeling, lately. Perhaps not as much as the other way around? I don't know... I've not really been able to get any feedback, on that score! And it must be absolutely dreadful having to go without that special gift I give.
I'm so sorry about that... Really, I am. Maybe I should've just gone ahead and turned you? Hindsight is a wonderful thing, I suppose... I can only imagine that going without your daily dose, as it were, is probably driving you crazy.
I'm just... I'm just sorry... So very sorry for that... And now there's nothing I can do about it.
You're my special student, hon'. I've never really had one before and you're just so eager to learn and... You know... If there's one fault you've got, then I suppose it's being superficial, but I'm glad I've been able to reign that side of you in a little tighter than usual, when I've been around. Playing 'mother', so to speak. You do appreciate the darkness, though. The shadows. And, of course, you appreciate me.
And anyone who can appreciate me is at least deserving of my attentions.
As demonic as it all is, I suppose it's kind of ironic that I've seen more of what I term your human side, the further down you've graduated upon this path. If I get out of here, then I guess I'd like to help you explore that a little more. To not be so afraid of showing it. To not put up that crab shell of bitchiness you walk around with.
We'll have to see.
Bethany... Oh, honey... What's up with you? I miss you. I miss you so much... A different way to Deanna. She's my maker. You're my... My something else entirely. Our bond isn't in blood, as much as I've, at times, fantasised about it being, but it's there, all the same.
Perhaps that means it's stronger, on at least one level?
If nobody else, then I just know you're out there, raising merry hell on my behalf. I've seen you do what you do best and as exhilarating as it is to watch, I sure wouldn't like to be on the opposite side of something like that.
We're gonna' have a party. That's what I keep telling myself. Something to look forward to. A party. The sort of party people would be talking about for years to come. They'll mention Las Vegas and that event, in one and the same breath.
Wouldn't that be something?
Go get 'em, honey... I know you will. You're probably the only one who stands half a chance and it's not like I could stop you.
And I'm glad of that, I really am.
And now I need to sleep. No more restless thoughts today for Vicky.
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