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7 AM.
Another restless night, another stranger in my bed, and yet another fucking sunrise to watch through the screen of an open hotel window. It's always the same -- I hit the road on my hog, see what kind of trouble I can dig up, unwind at whatever local dive's available (I ain't picky, 'least when it comes to finding a place to bump-and-grind at), find myself a stud to burn a little energy off on in the nearest trashy motel room, and wake up hours later to the smell of sex and sweat. It's kind of a ritual for me now. I breeze through towns, do the good deed of ridding middle-class suburban America of the things that go bump in the night, check in with Giles and the Buff via tacky postcards from even tackier rest stops, and find a place to hole up in long enough to collect my check and move on. Never staying too long, never getting too attached. Easier that way, you know?
None of the old gang can believe I've lasted this long on the road -- figured that when they offered me a free trip to Italy, I'd snatch it up like a dog would a T-bone steak. Rome sounded cool and all, but I was never one for the big group get-togethers. Besides, hanging with the kiddie slayers and playing role model to their budding slayer power? Not really my idea of a good time. So I bailed, took the "compensation for my services" and got the Hell out of dodge. Even got my record cleared thanks to some big wigs at the new Council pulling some wicked important Bureaucracy strings.
Gotta admit, it's a pretty sweet deal. I do what I want, when I want, and I never gotta worry about the boys in blue pulling out their guns and acting like they actually got a chance at taking me down again. Only person I got breathing down my back is me. *I* keep me in line now. No guards, no bars, no watchers. Just me and my conscience to keep me on the relatively straight and narrow. And so far? I haven't snapped once. Haven't even come close. There's been a few times where I could've... almost reached out and touched the line I told myself I'd never cross again. But in the end? I got a handle on it. Stopped myself before I got close enough to taste it again. It's not easy, but I deal. It's all part of being redemption's biggest bitch.
Anyway, the flavor of this week's a six-foot-two sandy haired golden boy who looks like something straight out of one of those cheesy harlequin romance novels you see on racks at the market. Boy's got the chiseled abs, year-round tan that's gotta be the job of a permanent fake-and-bake, and has this suave way of talking to a chick like she's Aphrodite reincarnated. Not my usual type, but he beat the other types that frequent this no-name Nevada desert town. Cowboy boots and snakeskin just never really appealed to me, you know? I might save a horse by riding a cowboy, but these guys just don't have what it takes to last with a girl like me in the saddle. Line dancing is not the way to go if you want to get in chick's pants, so Fabio it is. Too bad Mr. Suave passed out straight after and I didn't have the heart to throw him over my shoulder and toss him out into the sand. Funny that, huh? Must be getting soft in my old age.
Bummer.
I'm just pulling on my leather pants when I hear his voice, hoarse and sleep-tinted... and yet, still working that whole suave angle. "Going so soon?"
I spin around, pants half on-half off, and arch my shoulders up in a noncommittal shrug. "Sorry Stud, but I've got places to be. Room's paid up until this afternoon, so you're welcome to hang out here for a while and... recover."
I smirk at the last word, flash him a wicked looking grin, and finish zipping up the leathers. Twenty-seven years old and I can still rock the cow skin. Gotta love that slayer metabolism. Can't say the years have been bad to me, either. Got a few scowl lines on my brow, but I still look about as good as I ever did. The stud here proves that... as does the line of fine-looking dudes from east to west and back again. Speaking off... the boy is looking pretty ticked off at the diss to his not-so-stellar levels of endurance. Hey, it's not my problem he can't keep up. They got pills for that kinda stuff, you know?
"What's that supposed to mean?" he asks, his tone offended. Oops, did I just insult his manhood? My bad. I'll have to try harder next time.
"What do you think?" I shoot back, still smirking. "You passed out, man! Couldn't take the heat so you bailed on me. You have any idea what it's like to be *right* there and then lose it because the guy you're with can't last longer than five minutes?"
"Well, maybe I'd last longer if the girl I'm with wasn't some kind of freak of nature that almost threw me through a wall when I tried to get on top! How'd you do that anyway? You've gotta be what... 115 pounds at the most? You doin' some kind of freaky stuff?"
"Does it matter?" I ask, already bored by this conversation. "Look, you knew the deal when you walked through this door. We play by my rules or we don't play at all. Simple as that."
"Guess this is option number two then, huh? Who's skipping out on who now?" Touchy, touchy. Remind me again why I didn't throw this loser out the first chance I got?
"Whatever. I don't usually stick around for these morning after type deals. If you're looking for love, you've got the wrong girl. You might want to try a blonde next time. I hear they're real hot on the mushy stuff."
And would you look at that? Six years out of Sunnydale and I'm still taking cheap shots at B. Studly just stares at me like I've suddenly spouted another head and shakes his in disappointment. "Yeah, I'm getting that now. Where are you going in such a hurry anyway?"
At his question, I just grin, turn away, hoist my duffle on one shoulder and give him one last long look before I break out of this joint. He really is a fine lookin' man; it's a real shame he can't last in the sack or else I might've been tempted to stick around another week or two.
"I don't know," I reply honestly, all former malice gone. "But I always wanted to see Vegas."
I faintly hear him chuckling as I slam the door behind me, dust and sand whirling up around my feet in a pseudo tornado of grit and grime. A tumbleweed rolls by and I can't help it, I bust out laughing. The more I see of this world, the more I'm convinced I'm living in one big fucking cliché. I mean, here I am, a lone chick on a bike in a desert, and there's fucking tumbleweeds rolling down the road. I feel like I'm in the middle some old west flick when I mount my bike and take off, leaving behind a trail of displaced dirt after my speeding wheels.
Truth is, I'm tracking a pack of vamps up from Arizona. Ran into them in Phoenix and it should've been an easy sweep, but these guys are smarter than the usual bunch you run into. See, they actually got the sense to run when a slayer hits their town with a big wooden stick in hand. They know who the real big bad is when it comes down to the former-rogue-slayer-turned-freelancer versus a couple of barely surviving scraggly vampires. You don't last twelve years in this biz if you don't got the skills to back up the destiny and these guys know it. They stole a van, busted out of Phoenix, and I've been on their tail ever since. Mostly just for kicks 'cause I could use the entertainment, but I've also got a job to do here. Big or small, it don't matter. A vampire's a vampire and unless they got a soul, the only business I got with them is the pointy end of my stake in their chest. Romeo back there was just to pass the time until I get a bead on where my vamp buddies are headed off to next.
I know I gotta stop soon. Giles is expecting a postcard and I'm running dangerously low on the dough. Could use one of those fancy Council written checks right about now. Girl's gotta eat, you know? I've got enough to hole up in one more cheap motel before I might have to start considering giving blow jobs in return for a room. Worked for me when I was a scared sixteen year old running from a big daddy vamp; it'll work for me now. I've still got the appeal -- the big doe-eyes matched up with a great rack and a tight ass in even tighter leather pants -- only now I've got this little thing called self respect that takes all the fun out of the idea. So I'll just lay low for a while, see what kinda mileage I can get out of this town before it's strippers and blackjack for this slayer.
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