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Claire sat, stunned, on her and Nyx's bed. The letter, still unopened, lay in her hand. So many thoughts whirled through her brain. One moment she felt hot, the next moment, cold. Her fingers were shaking.
After all this time, why now? Why had he written her now? And how had he found her?
She was torn. Should she throw it away? Burn it? Destroy it without ever opening it?
But then, she'd always wonder why he had written.
He had caused her so much pain. Over the years, he had sent her so many mixed signals.
He had been her first...everything. Her first Watcher. Her first friend after the change. Her first lover. Her first secret.
He had left her, alone, desolate, confused, her heart shattered into a million pieces. He had chosen duty over her, not able to allow them to intermingle within their relationship. They had never been equals. He was always the strong one, the one who made the decisions. Eventually, he had made the decision to end it, no matter her tears, or pleas, or feelings.
She was a different person now. She had went through one side, and come out the other as a stronger, more independent, secure woman. She was an excellent slayer. He had helped to mold her into that, but she had taken the reins after he left, and cut her own path. She had good friends now, a career even, and most importantly, she had Nyx. With Nyx, she was whole. She wasn't the "little girl" or the one not in control. She was an equal partner in a loving, trusting, relationship.
With that thought in her mind, she decided to open the letter. She had Nyx in her heart. Nothing else mattered, and with his love shielding her, nothing Warren could ever say would hurt her again.
( Dear Claire )
Claire's face wore a mask, covering all emotion. She placed the letter deep inside her weapons chest and slammed the lid shut. She quickly changed into sweats and scratched out a note to Nyx explaining that she was going for a run. Her pounding footsteps were the only evidence of her churning insides and jumbled feelings.
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